January 7th, 2013
The significant decisions that you made through your own free will were made in the pursuit of more knowledge, love, and beauty. Or, to put it another way, the momentum and your place within that momentum didn’t provide the right environment to adequately quench your thirst for knowledge, love, and beauty. If you had chosen to stay the course and ride that wave of momentum you were born onto and groomed for, by those closest to you, then you would certainly be in a better place socially and financially, but inside you would be as you are now on the outside – bankrupt.
The major decisions you made in the past that put you at odds with the human momentum were driven by an internal rejection of, or revolt against, that general momentum. The gut instinct and will to make those decisions independent of the momentum, was courageous. But, as with most revolts or revolutions, you lacked a new solution, the resources, the vision, the preparation, and the know how to carve and forge your new path – the resolve, the will to stand and walk alone. As such, the decisions you made were the right decisions, for you, but the outcome resulted in setbacks, delays, loss of precious time, or quite honestly just a fall back onto the momentum.
These decisions you made on your own defined you relative to the momentum, but they didn’t define who you wanted to become. In order to become you have to know clearly what it is that you want to become. And if what you want to become is significantly at odds or indifferent with momentum, then you must have a battle plan and ample resources to carry out that plan. And if you are alone, with no support or resources from those closest to you that are themselves staunch allies of the momentum, then you must realize that becoming may be a painfully slow, lonely, and a difficult process. But what good ever comes easily without some form of patience and pain?
Just as important as developing a battle plan and vision, you have to be careful who you surround yourself with. You have been lucky in love (or have you?) in that you have loved several times and the women were beautiful, but they were all allies of the momentum. The same can be said of your friends (acquaintances) and family. Only one family member stood in opposition to the momentum, and he is your greatest ally. If you can’t surround yourself with allies that are seeking their own paths and that are also at odds with or indifferent to the momentum, then it is best to ensure that you are alone. Eventually, through your becoming, you will find other like-minded people who you can joyfully let into your life, and vice versa.