Photograph by Margo Wiessman
January 5th, 2013
Should you regret your past? Should you regret your present? Should you beat yourself raw… contemplating where you would be now had you made different decisions in the past? Well, the answer is, once again, yes and no. You have spent several years now reflecting and tearing yourself down along with those human eyes around you. But your reasons for tearing yourself down are your own — very different from those other disapproving and pitying eyes.
And you have spent significant time contemplating and musing about the human direction – expressing the insanity and shallowness of that direction. You have mused about utopia and how a different momentum could free mankind from the shackles it has wrapped around itself.
But there comes a point where such tearing down, reflection, and musing about what could’ve been or what could be, for yourself and humanity at large, becomes merely an escape, an excuse, a justification to continue on in the same unfruitful and unfulfilling direction. The general human momentum is not yours to control and it isn’t going to suddenly change to a more logical and intelligent direction. Besides, there are many human beings, apparently most of them, whom are perfectly content with the human momentum. And you know that you have enjoyed pieces of that momentum as well, which is exactly why that momentum is so destructive.
Now is the time to figure out what you need to take from and give to that momentum without being completely consumed by its nature. And now is the time to look at what was good about your past major decisions and what is good about your present – begin to build yourself back up to prepare yourself for the fight forward.